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Writing, Games and Everything Else I’d Like to Do but Don’t

Once again the idea of removing distractions, mainly games, has floated to the surface of my meandering stream of consciousness. The detachment of games from my life would be akin to the surgical removal of a much needed body part. I’m talking like limbs, toes or something equally necessary to do stuff with on a daily basis type of hard. I’d like to write more, whether its in a blog, short stories or even a novel, it’s something I’d like to pursue as a method of extricating myself from the current drudgery of “working for the man”. Of course, after about two seconds I realize that I am also accustomed to a certain level of lifestyle which would be taken away almost certainly since I could no longer afford to buy or do the things that facilitate that lifestyle. Like games. If only you could hear the sigh from where you are gentle readers. Its epic.

Anyway, another endeavor I’d like to continue with is the compilation of an e-book of short stories that two of my oldest friends wrote during our formative childhood years. I have quite a few that I would need to type in manually and perhaps do a little editing, but there is a literal stack of papers sitting near my desk that I have to manage and I just don’t ever seem to have the energy or the drive to go through it. Every once in a while I will take out the stack and put it in front of me in order to sort through and compare what I have in digital form versus what I have in hard copy. Every time I do this I end up reading one or two and it really takes me back to a time that I think needs to be remembered if only for the idea that we were a creative bunch and enjoyed it. I’ll keep you updated if there is any progress on this front.

I’ve mainly been playing Diablo 3 once again in anticipation of the upcoming expansion and despite my utter hatred of the auction house I always did enjoy that game as my over 150+ hours on multiple characters can attest. I’ve heard the console does away with the auction house portion of the game but instead increases the drop rate of the higher quality items. While I’m not sure that’s a bad thing I certainly don’t think its the right “fix” to make it more loot friendly. I will not be getting it on console as far as I know even though I really enjoyed the first Diablo on the PSX but I will probably keep playing the PC version for a while longer just because I still enjoy the game itself.

-v- out.

(Very Short) Crisis of Faith

For the briefest of moments I toyed with the idea of quitting video games for a year. Two seconds total. Maybe three but I think the heart crushing depression that came with that idea slowed down my cognitive processes somewhat. The reasons that lead to the point where I would even consider doing something so drastic are pretty common and may be something everyone experiences at one point in their lives.

I love being creative. Whether that’s writing, game designing or even thinking up some nifty (yet utterly futile) new feature to add on my blog that I barely use. I love thinking that I made something that I enjoy or if I’m lucky, something other people might enjoy. I derive a great amount of pleasure from the creative process especially the beginning. The middle is a tad tedious but necessary and I hardly ever make it to the end but that is one of the reasons why I think I need to devote less time to video games. I’d like to finish more of those creative projects that I start. I’m far too easily distracted and if I’ve had a bad day or stressful day at work (which happens more and more and more) I tend to just do something mindless and non-productive. It helps in the short term I think, taking my mind off that bad day, but eventually I’d like to change my mindset to do something creative instead.

What makes it hard though is that I love to play games. Whenever Steam has a sale, it takes quite a bit of discipline to not buy everything in sight even if I know I’m not going to get to it. Just the knowledge that I have it available whenever I want is akin to eating a big bowl o’comfort food. That’s another reason to try and stop or maybe even just cut back. Spend less money. Between board games and video games I’d need at least three full time jobs to pay for all the games and hardware I want.

The end goal for me in all this would be to get to a point where I am good enough and disciplined enough to write and game design in order to make enough money to live on. Or even just enough of a side income to get in to job where I might actually look forward to going to work.

So anyway I’ve been playing The Walking Dead that was just on sale on Steam and…

aw crap.

-v- out.

By Word of Mouth

Well despite the fact I know of only about 3 people that actually look at this site I’m going to post a link to a friend of mine’s webpage in hopes of spreading the news about her new book!

http://www.mycrapboss.com

I’ve pre-ordered my copy make sure to get yours ordered today too!

-vampy-