I seem to think that I’m not too bright.   I’m no psychologist, but I do believe that my id is trying to trick me.  I’ve been pretty meh on the whole game design/writing thing and I think its because I lack a certain device.  At least thats what I think I want me to believe.  I know I don’t need it but I surely want it and I must be telling myself that if I get it a unicorn with its magical horn (or is the unicorn inherently magical horn notwithstanding?) will shatter with extreme prejudice the creative barriers that have slowly been erected around me freeing me in my pursuit of pure awesomeness.  Picture all that with a lot more rainbows and colors and you get an idea of the kind of lies I seem to be telling myself.

Like I said I must not think I’m very smart.

I want a new laptop/tablet and I’ve almost convinced myself that I would totally be more productive if I had such a thing.  Totally.  I could write or design no matter where I go or what time of day or night it is because of that fantastic fancy new tech that I just don’t have.  While in part that may be true, I know deep down that I really don’t go anywhere so here in front of my computer is where I spend the vast majority of my time.  I know this.  It doesn’t stop me from trying to convince me otherwise though. Bless my conniving little heart, at least I care enough about my own happiness that I’m willing to lie to me to achieve it.

*self hug*

-v- out.